R is for Responsibility and Rage
I am a couple of posts behind with the A to Z so I'm going to do a couple of quick posts to play catch-up.
So, I am in a melancholic mood tonight so finding my usual spark of creativity is not easy. If I were to write down how I feel it would be explosive. But probably not in a good way. And so I must bide my time and wait for the moment when I can draw upon my emotions and use them to better my creative writing. That's what writers do and that's what I did in the more poignant moments in The Changing Room.
At the moment, I am still in grief. Grief for my past and grief what might have been. My days and nights are full of responsibilities and worries for my children and for our future. My emotions flicker from sadness to incandescent rage and everything else in-between.
On the plus side, I finally have control of the TV remote.
Awesome.
So, I am in a melancholic mood tonight so finding my usual spark of creativity is not easy. If I were to write down how I feel it would be explosive. But probably not in a good way. And so I must bide my time and wait for the moment when I can draw upon my emotions and use them to better my creative writing. That's what writers do and that's what I did in the more poignant moments in The Changing Room.
At the moment, I am still in grief. Grief for my past and grief what might have been. My days and nights are full of responsibilities and worries for my children and for our future. My emotions flicker from sadness to incandescent rage and everything else in-between.
On the plus side, I finally have control of the TV remote.
Awesome.
Bless you. I know the cycle of wanting to lay down a sob for days, then worry, doubt and fear, then wanting to just shout, rage and fight against the unfairness of it all.
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They say time heals all things, Barbara. Without wishing my life away, if I could fast forward a couple of years that would be awesome:)
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